now i know you must be crazy
or do you have a death wish
i don't understand
what your thinking is
that you won't discuss this
all i wanted was to talk
to converse about what happened
until i feel more calm
but now i feel that i matter even less
lower than before
unbelievable that you would chose
to slap me one more time
and think you've closed the door
i cannot continue to shame myself
this way
by trying over and over
to hear what you have to say
i feel like a stalker
doing things i wouldn't do
if it wasn't your life
hanging in the balance
if i'm unable to discuss it with you
but you know
i just can't do this anymore
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